Today…it’s exactly four months from our wedding date. There is an ocean of tribulations, but I am no longer swimming in it. I am now at peace with the fact that some people will never understand and support one’s happiness versus their own. That I will be walking down the aisle by myself and there will be around 30 people from my side who will be missing one of the most important moments of my entire life. It’s a sad thought and I’ve spent days of dried tears on my pillow but I don’t want to spend a hundred more over something that I can not change.
If there’s one thing I hate to do, it’s regretting. Every small or big thing retains some purpose and meaning to it, and there is no real mistake except for that which you do not do anything about. I’m not saying deciding to get married was a mistake. Walking away from it, now that, would be the mistake.
I’m already 25, I’m not going away with someone who is evil or has unfinished business, and I am not abandoning my obligations to my family – not even after marriage. I will still finish my responsibilities and give them a good life as committed, even if I have already been considered an ingrate and had been shut off. I’ve been good and just for once, I think it ought to be my absolute birthright to decide for myself and be happy. It is for any one person.
If there’s one thing I hate to do, it’s regretting. Every small or big thing retains some purpose and meaning to it, and there is no real mistake except for that which you do not do anything about. I’m not saying deciding to get married was a mistake. Walking away from it, now that, would be the mistake.
I’m already 25, I’m not going away with someone who is evil or has unfinished business, and I am not abandoning my obligations to my family – not even after marriage. I will still finish my responsibilities and give them a good life as committed, even if I have already been considered an ingrate and had been shut off. I’ve been good and just for once, I think it ought to be my absolute birthright to decide for myself and be happy. It is for any one person.
So today, I simply decide to be content, happy and just be thankful that I had made this wonderful decision to get married to the one person who has never left me despite all my ugliness and misery, all the excess baggage I had. I had been through a lot, a lot more than what’s normal; he also has been to. I think we both deserve to be given a chance at a new life together.
Love you, dearie. Here’s my thanks to you.
